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[She doesn't mean to cry - doesn't want to at all, it's stupid - but it just happens. One moment she's trembling through something close to rage - and rage is safe, rage will treat her just fine - and then she's crying, shuddering through each breath. It hurts to breathe. She wants her mom. She wants to go back home to Gilly and her mom and all her friends before things went to shit. She wants to go back to teasing Richie and running the shop with him. She wants her hand and she wants Gilly back. She wants the Commander dead.

There are too many things that Miriam wants and knows she'll never get. So she puts her head down and cries against Barnaby's chest. Fuck Richie. Fuck them all.]