[ Gansey shakes his head, rejecting that idea. He should have been here. He should have helped Adam. What else have they been through that he can't even remember? The thought that he had left them to it here, even though it wasn't intentional - ]

And you wouldn't be? Jesus, Adam. It's better none of us are here. I never would have wanted to leave you.

[ That's what he's sorry for.

His eyes are quite intent on Adam's face, barely paying any attention to what's happening with his hands. ]

You know that, don't you? This is awful. Where are Ronan and Noah now, why did you come alone?