The (modified) Hearts Meme + The TL;DR CR Meme

Welcome to another combo meme! This meme is one parts my modified version of the hearts meme, and another part the tl;dr CR meme.

Comment with your characters.

Others comment with appropriate hearts for how their character feels about yours.

If desired, ask for tl;dr CR at the same time/instead of hearts!

If asked for tl;dr, respond with however much you'd like to write about the CR between the two characters.

Profit!

Have fun everyone!

As a note, remember that you can change the alt text so that the hearts say different things when you hover your mouse over them. Look for title="" in the code you are copy and pasting, and change the text between the quotation marks to whatever you like!

This meme has been modified from it's original format to add more hearts, so be sure to read the descriptions! Also feel free to suggest more heart categories~

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"I would kill you."

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"I would physically or emotionally hurt you."

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"I would like to get to know you better."

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"I would spend time, have fun, or be friends with you."

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"You frighten or unsettle me."

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"You confuse me or I'm confused about you."

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"You amuse me."

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"I would rescue you or fight by your side."

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"I would hug you or hold your hand."

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"You are my friend."

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"I would date you."

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"You're my family."

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"I would kill for you."

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"I would kiss you."

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"I would have sex with you."

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"I love you or could fall in love with you."

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I am so sorry I didn’t reply to these sooner! I kept waiting to have a moment, and then didn’t realise how long had gone on. So, without further ado!

Adam is one of Gansey’s best friends. He’s also probably the one with whom Gansey has the most difficult relationship. I think the reason for this is the same reason why they’re close. Gansey and Adam are both clever and academically minded. They both also, for different reasons, have serious control issues. Both of them want to be the captain of their ship, and neither really wants to give ground to another opinion. So long as they’re in agreement, this works out fine, and good luck to anyone who tries to contradict them. It even works out well when their argument is purely academic, because Gansey likes exploring a problem from all angles, and Adam tends to approach it from a different perspective. Gansey is someone who likes to trust his instincts. To do this, he will establish a seriously expansive back-catalogue of knowledge about his subject area, and then he’ll make a judgment call based on what’s worked in the past, what options are open to him, which of those options holds the least risk, and then ultimately, which option feels right. Adam is someone who will approach a problem logically, and look for a strategic answer to it. Gansey likes the sharpness of Adam’s mind, likes that he thinks in directions that Gansey does not, and sees the value in having another pair of eyes. When Gansey isn’t sure of where to go next, when he’s confused and wants to talk something through, when he wants an idea or inspiration, it’s Adam that he looks to.

However, when the problem is personal, and they disagree, then they clash, and they clash spectacularly. Neither of them wants to be wrong, and neither wants to lose. They are both trying to escape from their pasts, and both trying to prove that there is more to them than where they come from. But they are from very different worlds. For Adam, Gansey represents everything that he’s trying to attain – wealth, respect, influence. Gansey sees those things as superficial, and feels they only represent his family – not himself. Still, he is wealthy and influential, and he feels that so long as he has something to give, he ought to do it. If he sees a friend unable to afford something, he wants to buy it for them. If they don’t have somewhere to live, he’ll give them a room. If they’re being hurt, he wants to protect them. This puts him at odds with Adam, who doesn’t see it as either kindness or friendship – he just sees it as a reminder of how different they are, and he won’t take charity because he wants to be on a level footing with Gansey. He feels that if he lets Gansey give him things, they won’t be equal. It’s taken Gansey a long time to even begin to understand that perspective. He tries, and he’s getting better at knowing what kind of help is acceptable, and what is not. But the result of all that is that his relationship with Adam has been fractious, full of fights that no one could win, which culminated in Gansey thinking that Adam genuinely hated him.

To Gansey, few things could be more terrible. He has a relentless admiration for Adam. He recognises that Adam has lived a life lacking in privilege, and yet Adam is the smartest person he knows. Adam defies every stereotype. He’s a terrifically hard worker, he’s sharp-witted and full of ideas. He’s also sacrificed far more than Gansey ever wanted anyone to, in the name of their quest, and that still upsets him. He doesn’t like, and doesn’t entirely trust, Cabeswater’s tendrils inside Adam. He’s afraid of what it means for him, and he still wishes he’d been able to stop it. He knows Adam would say that it was never his choice to make, and Gansey knows that’s true, but he still wishes it hadn’t happened. Just as he wants to find the ‘old’ Ronan, the happier Ronan from before his father died, Gansey wants the ‘old’ Adam - his Adam. There’s a naïve, painfully hopeful part of him that wants to get rid of everything that’s come between them and make it better.

To that end, he’s very determined not to fight anymore. He also doesn’t hate every aspect of what Cabeswater has done. Ultimately, Gansey is someone who loves magic, and seeing that in Adam is genuinely wonderful to him. Gansey still has the same faith in magic that he always did, but he’s a good deal more wary about it now. He’s also very afraid that one of his friends could get hurt through their quest, and he harbours a lot more doubts about it than he did at the start. This isn’t something he feels he can express to Adam; he feels that Adam has already sacrificed too much, and he owes it to him to keep going. He feels the same way about Ronan, and it’s because of this that the only one he’s really opened up to about his fears is Noah. Gansey is also seriously co-dependent when it comes to his friends, and of all of them, Adam is the one who’s determined to leave Henrietta. This means that for all he’d like to, Gansey can’t hold onto him forever. That’s not something he likes to think about. He doesn’t want to lose Adam.

Because of all this, he’s careful around Adam now. He’s wary of fighting with him again, and would go to some lengths to avoid it. He trusts Adam, implicitly, and he’s full of respect, admiration, and even envy when it comes to him. For all that they’ve clashed heads, Gansey looks at Adam and he thinks, ‘that is the kind of person I want to be’. Someone hardworking and determined, someone who has genuinely earned every inch of respect anyone gives him, rather than having it handed to him because of his name. Gansey thinks the world would be a better place if there were more people like Adam in it.

He’s just afraid of losing him, and he tries to cling to him in the wrong ways. In another series, theirs could genuinely be a story of epic romance. It sometimes reads that way. And Gansey is so possessive over Adam that sometimes, it’s hard to tell if he’s jealous of him, or jealous of the person with him.

So in summary of…all of that. Gansey loves Adam. He’s his best friend, he admires him, he wants to be like him. He’s afraid of losing him, and though his intentions are usually good, he has a tendency to push Adam away even while he’s trying to hold on. He’s trying to be better about that, though. And he’s definitely trying not to fight anymore, even though he’s not always sure why they were fighting in the first place!

No, never apologize! This is beautiful and I'm overjoyed you wrote it.

Poor Gansey - Adam is a prickly and difficult friend to have even at the best of times, with his need to prove himself and his own difficulty getting close to and trusting people. On top of that, he views everything in his life through the lens of his abuse and only sometimes realizes that's what he's doing. It's not Gansey's fault that Adam's had a controlling presence looming over him for most of his life, and because of that he reacts poorly to anything that seems like control over him. Gansey tries, and while he's definitely not perfect, trying is a lot more than Adam can expect from most other people.

But, yes. I love their relationship, as divisive and complicated as it can be, and absolutely at the core of it they love each other. Which of course makes some things more difficult, as neither of them wants to walk away from the other even when things do get bad, but also means that their friendship isn't so easily broken. Adam is still working on understanding that, which isn't so much of a surprise considering he didn't have any real friends before Gansey, and of course he doesn't have much experience with love or being loved in general. He's getting there, slowly.

Regardless, he's going to be trying real hard not to fight with Gansey. :c

:< Adam has had a very hard life. Gansey knows it, and he tries to always be aware of it, but he still manages to hit Adam's triggers before he can stop himself. He will keep trying to be better at that, though! He really does love Adam, and also very much wants Adam's approval. He admires him far more than he thinks.

And he hates fighting with him. He will not return to that summer! That is his best friend and nothing is coming between them again.

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