I don't know which I need first...a shower or a confessional.

[odinbolt]

these are my confessions
just when i thought i said all i could say my chick on the side said she had one on the way

✔ Your character is suddenly compelled to confess things.
✔ They can be about themselves, things they think about others, etc etc.
✔ Format however you like! If you want to make a toplevel and respond to yourself with individual confessions to keep things organized, go for it. If you want to post a bunch of confessions together in the toplevel, that's also cool! Same with having a thread/reply for other characters confessing to yours.
✔ Reply to confessions!
✔ Continue to confess things/assume your character has to tell the truth in threads.
✔ HAVE FUN

Comments

[lifetothefullest]

1. The lack of empathy of many of those here is so widespread that I sometimes wonder if I'm the one who's unusual or wrong in how I see things.

2. I seriously considered joining the Null the first time they made their offer. I'd already decided against it by the time they made their hit list, and if I hadn't that would've done it, but the original offer was too tempting to completely ignore.

3. Being here constantly reminds me of the worst time in my life, and it takes an inordinate amount of mental effort to function even semi-normally on most days. That's part of the reason I'm so impatient with the people who act as though a problem or situation is caused by someone simply not trying hard enough.

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[notimpervious]

You are not wrong.

[lifetothefullest]

Knowing that you're so sure about it helps me remember that.

[It's selfish, but he's so glad she's here. It had been even more difficult without her; being all alone had made it even harder than it already way not to doubt himself in a bad moment.]

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[requiemshark]

....hadn't thought about it that way. Suppose everyone sees this place and weighs it against wherever they came from. What you'd need to survive there.

You think about this stuff a lot, don't you?

[lifetothefullest]

It isn't necessarily wrong to do so; everyone needs some sort of framework to work from. But assuming their own experience is the standard, or that it makes them better or worse than other people with their own experiences, is a mistake.

I'm a psychologist; it kind of comes with the territory.

[And Lance overthinks everything naturally anyway.]

[requiemshark]

Yeah, I'm getting that now.

[It took some getting used to. A whole lot of patience. More than one ass-kicking.]

Hnn. Maybe. Got a feeling you're doing this shit off the clock too, though.

[lifetothefullest]

Is there an 'off the clock' here?

[It's a small joke that he half means, but is still mostly a deflection. Not like Ephemera's wrong, after all.]

[requiemshark]

Yeah, Doc.

[He tips his head to the side.]

Even people like me can't be on all the time.

[lifetothefullest]

[He offers a small shrug.]

I can't really turn off thinking about things.

[requiemshark]

No. But there's a difference between going at something like a professional and just looking at it.

[lifetothefullest]

Not as much of a difference as it might seem, in my field. Once you learn all the psychology stuff it's difficult not to use it all the time.

[Although there's definitely a difference in terms of mental distance, but he won't bring that up.]

[requiemshark]

I dunno about that stuff. But that was one of things CT taught us. Sometimes you can't turn off being a soldier 'cause you'll die, but sometimes you should. Or it gets to be too much.

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[hot_mes]

What would your reason have been? If I hadn't been in a mood I would have tried to bring them down from within myself.

[lifetothefullest]

They agreed to try to use the Door to not just send me back to my world, but choose at what point in time to return to. If I'm sent back to the moment I came from, I'll die within minutes.

[So being able to choose what point to return to will let him avoid that fate, at least in that specific way.]

[hot_mes]

Ah. I can see how that would be a factor.

But I'm not an expert in time travel, so hopefully you wouldn't end up running into your past self or something.

[lifetothefullest]

Me either. I don't honestly know how it would work, or if it would work at all, but at the time the will to try to survive was the most important thing.

[It isn't that he's given up now either, but he's at least able to balance it a little better.]

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[puzzlingly]

Kindness is hard to come by even in normal situations, I'm glad you haven't given up.

[lifetothefullest]

Thank you. I'd still like to believe there's just a loud minority here.

[And there are less terrible people than it seems. It's that way at home, after all; the awful things are the ones that stand out in one's memories and get most of the attention on the news, but the majority of people are at least decent if not good people.]